I so miss my Mom

Last week I looked for a gold chain that had one of my Mom's favorite rings and a gold half moon. My Mom died 8 years ago but most of the time it feels like yesterday. Anyway, I couldn't find the chain. I have gone from frantic mode to a deep sadness because that chain, ring and half moon were favorites of hers and it held a huge sentimental part of me. Last night I couldn't fall asleep. I had looked everywhere. I even, today, called the last motel that Alan and I had stayed in to see if someone had found it in our room. I was gently told that nothing had been turned it. My Mom often talked about how, when she died, she would send me "messages". I would be horrified that she was even hinting that she wouldn't be here forever and she would laugh like crazy and continue with her "message" talk. Tonight I again went to the bathroom drawers where I toss some of my jewelry. I know I had looked there at least a dozen times in the past week. Again nothing. I was crying and was "asking" my Mom to please help me find it. My eyes were red and I hurt like it did the day she died. I opened one of the drawers AGAIN and noticed Christmas jewelry. I pulled the jewelry out and my breath caught. My gold chain, ring and half moon was there. I know some of you will never believe my Mom had anything to do with me finding it. But I know that my Christmas jewelry is kept in a different drawer and that I never put every day jewelry there. If some of you reading this think I am goofy, so be it (because I actually am most of the time) but, tonight, my Mom touched me.

Thanks Mom. I miss you so much.